The other thing they never tell you is how many times you will be poked and prodded with incredibly invasive tests & monitoring. Don’t get me wrong, it’s all for a good cause and a necessary evil, but it still is not the greatest feeling to have a nurse or Dr. checking your most private parts Mid-period. AWFUL
5 vials of blood later & a painful ultrasound, Doc put me on a week or so of birth control starting today. The reason for the BC is to Prepare the Ovaries for Stimulation. Many women start an IVF cycle by taking birth control pills for a set number of days. Birth control medications decrease the chances of creating cysts that could interfere with the cycle start. They also allow the doctor to control the timing of the cycle. So step 1 is to start BC until they tell me to come in for another ultrasound.
They are also going to call me about an SHG in a few days. An SHG or sonohysterogram, is a saline infusion sonogram (also known as SIS) that is performed in the office. This procedure begins like a transvaginal ultrasound with the addition of a slow introduction of saline into the uterus. SHG is used to evaluate uterine abnormalities and the endometrium (uterine lining) as well as other disorders. They also called in antibiotic that I will take as there is a high risk of infection with this procedure. As soon as I got home I researched a little more about this procedure (because I can’t help myself). One of the first things that pops up is that it’s a “non-invasive” procedure. HA!! Clearly written by a man, to describe a procedure where saline is injected via a small tube (aka catheter) through the cervix and into the uterus as “non invasive”. I have already had a similar procedure (HSG) done and it was no walk in the park. The cramping and pain did go away relatively fast so I’m hoping the same for this procedure.
Everyday is a struggle and I’m trying my hardest to put on a brave face althoug deep down inside I’m terrified & worried of everything that can go wrong. After a few tears this morning I gave myself a pep talk that I can’t feel sorry for myself. A lot of women would be grateful to be in my shoes because that means there’s a chance. I have a chance. My coworker keeps telling me PMA (positive mental attitude) and I am going to try my best. Although my journey might not be easy I’m praying it will be worth it in the end. So I’m going to put on my big girl panties and get through this first step. PMA ladies! I will update at my next appt.
I will leave you with this story I saw in an IVF support group & it made me smile.
“An elephant and a dog became pregnant at same time. Three months down the line the dog gave birth to six puppies. Six months later the dog was pregnant again, and nine months on it gave birth to another dozen puppies. The pattern continued.
On the eighteenth month the dog approached the elephant questioning, “Are you sure that you are pregnant? We became pregnant on the same date, I have given birth three times to a dozen puppies and they are now grown to become big dogs, yet you are still pregnant. Whats going on?”. The elephant replied, “There is something I want you to understand. What I am carrying is not a puppy but an elephant. I only give birth to one in two years. When my baby hits the ground, the earth feels it. When my baby crosses the road, human beings stop and watch in admiration, what I carry draws attention. So what I’m carrying is mighty and great.
Don’t lose faith when you see others receive answers to their prayers. Don’t be envious of others testimony. If you haven’t received your own blessings, don’t despair. Say to yourself “My time is coming, and when it hits the surface of the earth, people shall yield in admiration.”