IVF:Giving body shots a whole new meaning

Day 4 of stims but 6 days since I started Lupron injections. After 6 days i truly thought i had it down, but I’ve made my stomach look like a banana you forgot about in your work desk drawer🤦🏻‍♀️. Between the headaches, the sweats and the “foggy” feeling I’m not sure which one I’m enjoying more? Lol oh and throw in some random joint pain to the mix. These are all standard side effects I’m told but honestly it’s not all too terrible. The headaches are intense and i can’t take anything except for Tylenol which does NOTHING but makes me feel like the Meds are doing its job, maybe? Sure?

The Fogginess is the most worrying. I had a monitoring appointment this morning and when I got to the parking lot I was like how the hell did I even get here?? The rest of the day at work wasn’t any better. My head and my heart are just somewhere else.

I have another monitoring appt on Wednesday where hopefully they will explain my blood tests and ultrasounds a little more since I’m worried my estrogen level is low. This was part of the reason my last cycle was cancelled. They told me to keep my Meds at the same doses so no changes.

Trying to stay happy, positive and stress free is nearly impossible when your pumping yourself full of hormones. Today I went through the entire spectrum of emotions. I laughed, cried, raged, stressed all in a matter of like 20 minutes! Such a rollercoaster!

No really though. I apologize in advance if we come into contact and I’m not my normal self. Because today is just the beginning of the intense mood swings. Pray for my poor husband. #IVFhusbandLivesMatter 😂

This is my affirmation for today. We are having our nightly pep talk with the follicles to please behave and grow big and strong eggs for us. If you are reading. Send prayers



It’s finally here! First day of stimulation medication!!! While I’m so excited we are finally at this next stage I am terrified of the havoc these hormones are going to wreak on my body. I am starting at pretty high doses due to my low ovarian reserve (due to my endometriosis ). The Lupron headaches have been relentless and the night sweats are something else. More symptoms to follow!

To recap the medications I’m on:

Lupron -suppresses the pituitary gland (this gland is responsible for triggering ovulation which we don’t want just yet!

Follistim– A follicle stimulating hormone that helps healthy ovaries to develop and release mature eggs.

Menopur – Stimulates multiple follicles and eggs to develop. Women normally don’t naturally develop more than one mature follicle per cycle but in my case we want MULTIPLE mature follicles. Be warned!!! MENOPUR feels like your injecting acid from the depths of hell straight into your abdomen !

I will never get used to needles but after watching the instruction videos like 100 times I finally stuck myself with 3 separate needles with the moral support from hubby and pups 💞.

We will be having a pep talk with my little follicles tonight. Grow follicles, grow. Please🙏🏼. We need lots of healthy eggs to harvest once they are mature enough. At my baseline ultrasound on Wednesday we had 5 follicles on left ovary and 4 on the right. They are low numbers but it only takes one!! Although I pray we have at least 1 to freeze.

This is a reminder to myself:

Shots, Shots, Shots💉💉💉

Not the fun kind of shots but I’m just as excited believe it or not. I had my first ultrasound and bloodwork of the cycle this morning and I started Lupron Shots that will be 2x a day for the entire length.(anywhere from 10-14 more days) Friday I will add 2 more shots of Follistim @300 units and Menopur @150 units. Already starting to feel the headache and stomach distress side effects but overall not terrible. For now I just have to keep chugging water.

I had a slight issue with the Lupron. I made a rookie mistake of NOT quadruple checking the expiration dates and unfortunately the pharmacy sent me a vial that expires tomorrow 2/22/18🙄🙄. Luckily we realized it in time and they will overnight me a vial for free due to the mistake. Crisis (not panic attack) averted but lesson learned!

I have a wonderful coworker who has been through IVF, that gave me this card for Christmas. I keep it pinned in front of me as a daily reminder❤️B E L I E V E

Round II

So Here we go again Kids.

It’s been some time since I’ve updated. To those of you who actually read this, thanks always for the Support ❤

The last few months have been total whirlwind of Physical and emotional chaos. Since our failed egg retrieval we have switched to a new Dr. and we absolutely love her.

Switching doctor’s was not an easy decision but the best one we have made so far. Every office is different but for the most part I feel so much more positive. The Dr. actually takes the time to call me with results and EXPLAIN things. It’s quite amazing actually, the difference between my previous Dr. and my new one.

To quickly recap:

  • Early November: Met with New Dr. She was very kind and Knowledgeable and we decided to immediately leave the old practice and start fresh.
  • Mid November -Late December- Repeated every blood test possible and transferred all my records to New Dr.s Office. (it was not easy!)
  • January  2018– I was SUPPOSED to start IVF Cycle- NOPE JUST KIDDING

A lot of the times even the smallest setback can feel like a mountain. I was physically and mentally ready to get the ball rolling again. My period was of course taking it’s sweet time and i was a few days late.  When you are having trouble getting pregnant, no matter how hopeless your situation, you ALWAYS pray for a miracle. So being late is just a big giant mind F*ck. Testing everyday, hoping we somehow got lucky, only to get negative after negative.. Absolute heartbreak each time. Then my period finally starts and I”m likes YES i’m ready for this. Time to call the Doctor! but only to be met with more setbacks.

Early January i called the doctor’s office to let them know i started my cycle and was told there were still things on my IVF checklist that were not completed. For example, my husband still had bloodwork he had not completed and the repeat blood tests i had been waiting on shows that my Prolactin level is elevated.  All i could think was WHAT?!!?@

It was like bad deja vu. I had switched to another office that couldn’t figure their shit out. I had called and asked SEVERAL times to ask what else needed to be done.  They had in my chart that i was on birth control pills, which i wasn’t. They put an order in for my IVF meds and i found several mistakes. (like why am i more of an expert than these nurses??) There were like 4 or 5 nurses who had their hands in my chart and none of them seemed to put the correct information in.  There were also a few other little things that they seem confused about regarding my chart and I just felt like i could not go through this again. I immediately called and left a message with the doctor to express my concerns. I was shocked when she called me first thing the next morning and totally agreed. She put my mind at ease by reviewing my chart and making sure the correct information was in there. I was also called by the nursing coordinator right after and she is now my only contact. It might seem like I am overreacting but my attitude with my first IVF cycle was not to be so “high maintenance”. Little mistakes and miscommunications are exactly what can lead to a failed cycle. This process is stressful enough and i need the professionals to know exactly what they are doing and I need to be able to trust in them.

Due to my slightly elevated prolactin level of 31 (they don’t want to see it higher than 25) i  couldn’t continue yet with a new IVF cycle & needed to go get an MRI of the brain. In SOME cases, elevated prolactin can be an indicator of a mass on the pituitary gland. Prolactin is a hormone that plays a role in fertility by inhibiting follicle stimulating hormone (FSH) and gonadotropin-releasing hormone (GnRH), the hormones that trigger ovulation and allow eggs to develop and mature.  So this could be a possible piece of the puzzle of why we haven’t been able to conceive naturally. My previous Dr. never even checked for this hormone and now I’m being told I may have a mass in my brain…. Sigh.

Thankfully after the MRI everything came back clear. I had a very small less than 1mm mass and the Dr. was not concerned at all. She put me on Dostinex (Cabergoline) even before the MRI and by the time i had my 3rd Prolactin check  4 weeks later, i was down to a 6. Such a whirlwind of emotions. Scared, worried, angry and depressed all mixed into one. Infertility is full of constant 2 week waits. 2 weeks to find out if your pregnant, 2 weeks for important blood results, 2 weeks for MRI results. The WAITING is soul crushing. If it weren’t for bad luck i’d have no Luck at all and when these little things happen it’s so hard to stay positive.

Flash Forward to Last week. Period comes a few days late. Again more POAS (peeing on a stick) just to get disappointed but HERE WE GO. We are ready to get STARTED.  Birth Control for 15 days to “quiet” the ovaries. We have an appointment this week to go over the Medication protocol and baseline ultrasound and bloodwork.  Then a few days after that I will start Lupron microdose twice a day. Then a few days after that we start Stim medication for 7-10 days of Menopur and Follistim.  I CANNOT WAIT. I want every single Injection.I want the bloating. I want the side effects. because we want the baby we have been praying for.  A week after turning 32 & 7 months after my laparoscopy,  WE are going to put every ounce of effort into putting all the positivity out there that this WILL work. Do you hear me UNIVERSE?? THIS WILL WORK.  We are only able to start this cycle so positive because of the total love and support from our friends and family.

We are working on a Miracle with LOVE, FAITH & a little SCIENCE. My box of meds arrived today. It feels real. I will keep everyone updated 🙂